A couple of nights ago and for the second night in a row, I found myself tossing and turning for hours.
Not even the gentle rumble of Paul's breath would help me drift off to sleep.
My mind was pondering over what seemed like a million jumbled thoughts - quiet thoughts, which seem so loud when they are all clattering around in my head at once.
The previous night, I had given up on sleep and got out of bed at 1.40am and didn't actually go back to bed at all.
This time, I quietly climbed out of bed at 12.20am and tip-toed down the creaking stairs. I felt like I was the only person in the world who was awake.
Alone with my thoughts I wished my art studio was in the house - I might have been able to paint myself to sleep. Instead I found myself watching endless vintage episodes of 'Home and Away' and browsing the Land of Blog.
It was then that I came across this quote that Crystal Cook had shared by Julia Cameron...
"Remember by being willing to be a bad artist, you have a chance over time to be an artist, and perhaps, over time, a very good one."
Finally, I felt restful and validated and at 3.40am I climbed back in to bed.
Last night I felt so tired. And this time I drifted in to a wonderful deep sleep within minutes of climbing in to bed. And I slept solidly.....
.....that was until 3.28am, when my mobile phone rang!
It was our daughter, Adele.
It turned out that it was her turn for a restless night and she needed to talk about her own worries.
Wearily, we chatted until around 4.30am and I think she felt better for it.
I, on the other felt like I had been woken from the dead, lol! But we do anything for our children don't we?
This is how I hope both Adele and I will be sleeping tonight...
I just love drawing babies - especially when their faces are all squashed up :0)
Just before I go, following my last post, I came across this really old watercolour sketch I did from memory when I returned from climbing Ben Nevis a few years ago...
It felt so odd to be looking over the clouds!
At the bottom of the mountain it was a misty, dull day - but at the top it was bright sunshine and so warm, even though it was covered in snow!
I hope you are all having a good week :0)