The day the fairy-lights went out.

I said I wouldn't post until the New-Year, but we find ourselves in bits following the most awful Christmas.

This post is for Codi, our dog, who died unexpectedly on Christmas day.

I have never felt such a loss in my whole life and this feeling is only amplified by the fact that as I work from home, we were virtually never apart and not only that, she was a dog that always made sure her presence was known.

Now, her presence is only 'felt' and earlier today I found myself opening the back door to let her in.  It's the strangest thing.

 When I have heard people speaking of  a 'heavy heart', I always thought that it was just an expression, but now I know that it is a true physical feeling. My heart feels as though it is being dragged down in to the pit of my stomach and I find myself constantly fighting back tears.

I am never usually a person to share negative feelings, but hopefully you will understand that just this once I can't do anything else.

I feel like I should be posting so much more but this is just too painful.




I hope that all of you had a much brighter Christmas.

'We love you Codi - and you will always be here, right by my side xxxxxxxxx'